I am no stranger to new and strange fads. Fad diets, fashion, and yes relaxation techniques are no different. I was having a terrible week last week. My medication was not acting right, my brain was racing, and I just felt off. That is why I made one of my 30 days of relaxation goals to be do meditation.
First off, I am a huge proponent of hypnosis. I was slightly optimistic because I thought it was a relaxed state and maybe it would be similar. It really wasn't. I'll give it credit, it was relaxing. At one point, I felt so relaxed that it felt like I had a glass of wine in my system. I promise, I didn't.
I had no idea where to even start. Do you listen to a recording, watch a video, read a book? I thought videos and books seemed to defeat the purpose of having your eyes clothes and relaxing. I went for an audio that a friend provided. I shooed the felines away and sat on my bed in the comfiest clothes I could come up with. As I sat and listened to this strange man, I tried to push away all of my stressors. I think it worked because I was less temper tantrumy the next day. I remember as I sat there, my body would shift to what he was saying. As he talked about negativity, I found myself slumped. As he mentioned releasing, I would be straight up. I have no idea if I consciously did it or not, but it was fascinating.
Will I try meditation again? probably. I may read a book first to see what the goals and background are first. Until that time, I still have hypnosis to keep me from being a monster.