Since I started selling Young Living, I learned that other people affiliated with the company are not just about selling oils. This is a huge relief since I absolutely suck at sales. I can tell you all of the benefits, give a recommendation, but at the end of the day, I am not rich and I could never force someone to invest in something that they can not financially handle.
The difference between Young Living and other companies is that it really is okay. I don't have that pressure. Yeah, I do work my butt off. I do struggle. I also do it for myself. I want to succeed at something I don't normally do. I want to try new things.
A few weeks ago, I cam across a Twitter account for Live Oola. I wasn't immediately aware it was Young Living affiliated until I started to really dive in. They had these beautiful quotes on inspirational photos and had very energetic team members. I was dealing with a wide range of emotions over the past week and I decided it was time. I needed to check this out. I started to read these quotes and I was struck again and and again by how relatable they were. I didn't even know that they were encouraging you to be a better version of. They wanted you to feel at least a 7/10 on every scale of your life. Family, friends, fun, finances, fitness, faith, and field. I was alarmed that my average score was 477. Ideally, you should be in the 700s or higher.
What am I doing wrong? I dug through the quotes to see what really struck me and I was not surprised to see what I saw.
I am always trying to change my situation or correct something. I always feel like I am right and others are wrong. That isn't true. I don't really think others are wrong. I think we are all right in our own way, but some of us need to improve. I can't fix someone elses problems. They can do that and I can fix me.
I feel like so much of life is a struggle. It is amazing when you look back and see how easy you have had it. I have had terrible experiences, but I have learned so much. Things that I am positive about now, I wasn't always positive about. I need to look for my learning lessons.
This one immediately reminded me of a Josh Groban song. I listened to the song "You Are Loved" so much, yet I never took stock in it. Sometimes you have to be beat down enough to get up and say, "No. I am not taking any more abuse. I have an army behind me and I just now saw them."
This saying is my goal. I desperately seek balance, but I am always tipping the scales. Trust is hard, and I don't know what contentment means, but at the end of the day, I want it.
So much. I can't wait to see the puzzle come together.
I have been in the blogging business for a very long time. Sometimes I have passion and love writing! Other times I will stop for months or years while I search for my ultimate purpose.
Things that are not my purpose:
Online web minister
Now that we have that settled... you probably have realized that I actually wanted to be all of these things. I am sorry for anyone I would have taken these chances from if I tried. Especially Donald Trump. I would have totally beat you.
Well I feel like I had a free webpage off of some web service that is similar to what WordPress is now. The part I do remember, is that my page was named Princess Vickie. My email was also firstname.lastname@example.org. Don't try to email me. I'm fairly certain that site has been down since I was in late high school.
I had a variety of frequent visitors and friends from around the countries. We were all attracted to each others animated and flashy backgrounds and cornflower blue font. Our greatest problems in the world was that our best friend was in love with our crush and we were not supposed to talk to him anymore.
Of all of my websites, I only remember two visitors. One I still have on my Facebook and we frequently like each others things. The other was from this small site. In my dream careers, you will notice that one of them was meteorologist. That is probably why this visitor stands out. While I can't remember his name, I remember his story. He was a volunteer firefighter in Galveston, Texas. He always talked about wanting to save people and help people. I would like to guess I was about 16 and he was about 18 at the time. Maybe I am way off and this is the internet. We talked quite a bit about helping people, and for the first time I felt really horrible about myself. I always work to make me better. He wanted to spend his life serving the community.
Well, I really do suck, and he was more honorable if the internet wasn't a catfisher. The last I heard from him was around Hurricane Katrina. I don't know if I just stopped checking the site, or if something else happened, but I often think back on those conversations and emails.
I was watching the news about Hurricane Harvey and I opened up a map of Texas. I wanted to see where all was getting hit. As you all know, I'm from Indiana and Texas is not on my 45 states to live. I looked and saw Galveston. That frustrating name that sounds so close to Galaveston. I wondered, is he still saving people? Is he still an upstanding guy?
No matter, best wishes and stay safe Texas. Us weirdos in Indiana are thinking fondly of you and we know the pain of a storm. Ours just rip through for a few minutes leaving us devastated. I can't imagine what you are going through. I can't even swim. Knowing everything is under that much water is horrifying. Stay safe and attempt to stay dry.
Have you ever gone on a shopping spree? Ha. Me too. Have you ever done it online? Ha. Me too. Have you ever decided that the only things you really need are useful and somewhat hilarious? Oh my gosh you should have seen my mail!
Yesterday, I finally decided to check my mail. I finally got really good at checking when I was buying too many little things off of the Wish app. I stopped purchasing when I ordered a necklace that took a month and a half to get to the arrival date (and was pushed back). Once I hit 50 days, I wrote a nasty note wanting a return. They said they would and I would probably still get it since it was in transit. I never saw it. It's probably a good thing. The last necklace I had like it lasted maybe a month and I'm not convinced the glowy material wasn't really radioactive.
Shopping addictions aside, I only got my normal bills and Young Living orders. YL doesn't count because I sell it. So finally I go to check my mail without fear just like a normal person. I immediately remember that I have contacts that I ordered during Game of THrones the week before. YES! I have been wearing my green and hazel fairly frequently, but I hadn't worn blue since 6th grade. Yes, that was about 20 years ago I assume. Score one, I have new contacts, but I don't do anything on weekends because the cats deserve me.
Now, I am expecting a collective internet face palm. Go ahead... I'll wait.
Good. I'm glad you got that out of your system. Now to hear what I actually bought!
I came to my door to see two boxes of items from the HSA store! The what? I got 3 wrist and hand braces, one ankle brace, a back brace, a TMJ strap, migraine cooling pads, a migraine face mask, an elbow brace, a new thermometer, and Frozen band-aids!
It was like Christmas! I didn't know what to open first! My hands hurt frequently, but my back is terrible, but NO. I am so excited about the TMJ thing! I need to go to bed immediately! I gathered my items and put the on the couch. I grabbed the really cool TMJ thing and headed off to watch some sad David Duchovony movie on Netflix. Between having an oil diffuser and this, bedtime has never been so amazing!
Most people around me know that I have a little bit of pain. Sometimes it is when my 20 lb. cat sits on me, sometimes it is when I realize my dishwasher doesn't put the dishes away for me. Every other day, it is a sharp pain in my left big toe, pain in my left foot on the top near the ankle, radiating pain up my left leg, sharp pain and spasms from my left hand and wrist, and a weird pain in my left arm below the elbow.
This week, the saga of the mystery left side main broadened. I mysteriously developed pain in my ear and throat. Well the ear turned out to be lots of fluid behind my ears. the throat pain was mysterious because it was not in a sore throat spot.
A few things I hate to do: going to the doctor, going to the pharmacy, and dealing with problems. As I sit here typing with pain in my left fingers, I think, I should go back and get that checked since I've been on steroids for 4 days and still have so much pain. Maybe next year. I am convinced that even though I don't look like I am in pain, that it is starting impact me mentally. That is obviously not a long trip, but I can't go 15 hours a day like I used to. I get tired before the end of my shift. I actually starty to worry about what is wrong with me.
One of these day, my stubborn self will go, but until then, if you see me not smile or see me looking at my phone, I may be trying to concentrate on something else.
Side note: Since using essential oils, tangerine has helped my book while panaway has helped with the pain. !
I am 90% certain that the reason I don't like to get attached to people is because of politics. I am not necessarily talking about Republicans vs Democrats (even though you will probably be higher on my list if you didn't vote for Trump).
One of the hardest things about having friends in a similar environment to you is that you are all climbing the same wall and sometimes being put in the ring to fight against each other. Even if you don't realize it's happening at first, sometimes people will use your friendships against you.
I learned this the hard way recently. When I was at Pier One, this happened so often that I couldn't count, but the difference was we weren't supposed to be friends. We had to act cool and composed and deck each other in the parking lot.
In a career job that is full of many forms of office politics, leadership challenges, and miscommunication, it is impossible to avoid.
Is it best to avoid attachments to co-works in the first place? Is it best to surprise them when you think about leaving? Maybe it wasn't directly their fault, but they played a good hand at the end.
Work is fun when you are doing something you love. It is better when you enjoy the people you work with.
As everyone knows, my summer started off pretty amazing. I'm not saying the last month and a half was bad, but it has test my heart and my patience.
I am finally at a crossroads and I need to choose my direction. I have had the most wonderful past two days. On Friday, I had my first Professional Development book Club at work. One attendee, a coworker of mine, are essentially the same person I think. We knew we would get along. We also had a student come to the group that was extremely refreshing. As we all talked, got off topic, got back on topic, and found more realistic scenarios to the examples in the book, we realized how important it was for 2 young women in their early 30s to be there. This girl was 19 and from a different country. She stepped out of her comfort zone to come. We laughed, talked, and gave real world advise on jobs, school, dating, and even self image.
I think we forget sometimes that we are important in even the smallest ways.
I also had the humbling opportunity to guide a group of alumni from the late 1960s back on campus for the first time. The men I worked with were fantastic, but when we all got together, it was like we were all friends. They all started teasing each other like they were undergrads saying "do you remember when you did that?" and "I bet you can't remember who performed here in 1968..." I think the moment that was real for me was when we all walked into the fieldhouse. I swear I saw a tear in one members eye. Everything they dreamed of in the 1960's and 70's had come to pass. I was just a witness and a guide to show it.
Life throws you unexpected curves. Sometimes you get what you want and sometimes another opportunity opens up when another closes. No matter the circumstances, I appreciate being able to make a difference when I am and how I am.